Lay it down slow

Okay, so I'm feeling very emotional now.
Let me give you a fact about me shall we?
The one unique fact about Bjorn : He gets very emotional easily, even over the simplest thing.

What sparks it this time? Just one TV series, Prison Break.
Wow, you might think, just a tv series is enough to make me emotional, or maybe even shed a tear.
Well yeah, you can say so, but I don't feel anything wrong or wierd with it,
It's just me right?

After watching something for a while, I'll tend to feel very emotional, that the show's finally ending.
A sad ending contributes more to my emotions as well, and I can't help but to watch the ending part of the final episode again,
Even the song on my blog is the last song of the series.
Now, I can save 45minutes more each week now, but at the same time, I'll miss 45minutes of entertainment.
Now that Prison Break's over, wait till Heroes' over as well.

Oh by the way, I can talk about something here. After being with something,
Or even watching something for very long, you definitely grow this 'emotional attachment' for it.
Be it friends, TV shows, Korean dramas, your boyfriend/girlfriend, your parents, whatever. Sometimes it goes to a point where you yearn to see it almost everyday,
You just need to 'satisfy' that feeling.
Felt a lot of times before, chalet or some party, It's just you've never had so much fun in a while,
That you wanna have it again very soon.
And for the next few days, your mind will be thinking about that thing, trust me about this.

Moving on, our parents. Might be a little off topic, but please do read.
PS: If you're a gangster or hooligan, you're an exception to reading this, because I sure you'll never understand what I'm saying,
To put it bluntly, you're hopeless.



Since young, they've been there for us, no matter what. You get bullied in school, your friends leave you,
But your parents, your family, is always and forever there.
What I wanna say is, treasure them, don't take them for granted, don't wait till they're gone and then you start to regret, no.
Almost the same as the emotional attachment, don't wait till everything is gone and then you start to feel emotional.
Of course, everyone have to face that particular day where you lose them.
Be brave, lay it down slow.

Contradicting myself

No conclusions of life now.
Anyway, 2 tests next week, that's bullshit.

Oh and you there, if you've been on my MSN for long, you'll find this phrase familiar :
Don't Try Too Hard.

I go around telling people don't try too hard, don't try too hard.
But now I realise I'm actually trying too hard myself.
Bjorn ah Bjorn.

Saviour King

My Journey With God.

I'm gonna talk about my walk with God now, decision to read lies on you.
P/S : Pictures are there to make this post not so wordy

It all started during secondary 3 for me, when my older sister brought me to this church at Expo called FCBC , in short for Faith Community Baptist Church.
I enjoyed the services and cell groups , making more friends in the process, and then during August if I didn't remember wrongly, I 'officially' accepted Jesus Christ in my life.
So life was really fun during those times, there were great brothers, and because of them,
I started to drift away from my secondary school clique, mainly because I thought my church mates were more understanding and more fun than my secondary school clique.
But, my parents were against me going church, though I was quite persistent. So from secondary 3 all the way till secondary 4 mid June, I was hanging out with them everytime,
From playing pool, going out to slack, and even 7 people staying over my place frequently.
I was a Die Hard christian during that period.
Those who've known me long would know that.
And my parents were obviously unhappy.
For your info, I think the main reason why my parents were unhappy was that,
After going church, me and my two sisters were expected to respect our parents more,
But we ended up being more rude, I don't know how it turned out that way either.
Church was kinda my priority during that time, even during exam period, I wanted to go church, because my cell leader says that even during exam, you have to make time for God.
Being a Die Hard, I was obviously listening to what he told me,
But my parents was once again against it. So I was finally stopped from going church during mid June.


Until after O level, I started to go back again. But this time I was more with my secondary school clique again.
So yeah, on and on, until I don't know when, I left the church, simply because the people there were very immature, I think.
And pressure's being placed on me as well, it's like, there's this 'expectation' of you from the cell leader, and my cell leader expects me to meet to his expectation,
Although my cell leader ain't as worst as my buddy cell leader. I'll elaborate more on that later.
So yeah, I spoke to my cell leader about it, and thank God, he was very understanding, so I 'took a break' from church,
And from then on I led my normal life again, but occasionally there's this feeling of wanting to just go back and worship God,
Maybe once in 3 months or so,
But sorry to say, I still think the people there suck.

Okay now on more of my 'point of view', and reasons why I left myself.
People say that church people are much more matured than those who don't go to church,
But if you ask me, I see more bullshit assbags in my church than in public, it pisses me off to see them act like that.
And there's this 'rules' in church, like, no relationships, no going out with a girl one-on-one, you have to tell your cell leader, and I followed those 'rules' during my Die Hard period.
But after that, I thought every single piece of it was rubbish.
Now talking about my buddy cell. Earlier on, my cell was the one with the least people among the 2 cells, but now, it's vice versa. Reason?
Simply because the buddy cell leader places too much pressure on his cell members, very high expectations, like, you have to go to church and cell group every week, if you don't, you have to give a valid reason.
No need for me to say a whole chunk of words to describe this.
I've got many friends who left church because of this pressure as well.

Lastly, even though I swear around and such, there's still this part of me who still loves God, and believes Him.
My faith is very wavy, but in a sense, stable.
Come to think of it, I'm kinda like Ron. LOL
I guess even though he jokes around and does his bullshit,
He still loves God all the way.
Finally, christian songs are still, and forever, the best songs in the world.

Jesus loves me, yes I know.

Modules of the semester

I realised I haven't talk about my modules for this semester yet,
So today's post is gonna be an overview of my modules,
& obviously what I think of it

Aircraft Maintenance Practices ( AMP ) - Bolts, nuts, screws, safety wiring, riveting, everything that concerns fixing plane parts together. Quite a nice module, except practical that pisses me off a lot. Oh and I'm not confident about this module

Aircraft Electrical & Instrumentation Systems ( AEIS ) - Circuits, generator, all the bullshit. Overall, this is the most screwed up module with some jogging lecturer. So confidence level for this is level 1

Catia - Computer Aided Drawing, same as AutoCAD. But much more complicated, and more problems to solve. Fun module, especially when you finish drawing something, you feel a sense of accomplishness. Ahahaha, but still, I can't find the confidence, yet.

Aircraft Structures & Repair ( ACC ) - Don't ask me why it's ACC because I don't get it. Shouldn't it be ASR? Anyway, this module was pretty screwed early on, but I read through it recently, and it's been better, but could be better. No confidence yet as well.

Report Writing & Presentation ( RWP ) - No need for me to say, this is the most FUCKED UP module ever, going along with OC and CRS. Teacher's some old virgin whose lessons are pointless, only send emails. Oh my presentation's next week as well. Shit _|_

Mechanics - Okay okay for this module, just A Maths and Physics together. Solving is okay for me, but when I see the question, I can't seem to dig out the formula. Damnnn

Engineering Mathematics II - A Maths again.

That's it, most modules quite GG for me currently, and Catia and AMP tests are on week 7, presentation's this week,
And my presentation is not here, and not there.
Noooooooo.

What's wrong with it

I hear people who believe in God say don't listen to metal. It's bad.
But no.
I
Don't
Fucking
Care



Atreyu - The Crimson


Atreyu - Slow Burn

My point of view : Relationships

Today I'm gonna talk about 'Relationships'
Everyone would want to get into a relationship, and I mean a Boy-Girl Relationship, not some family relationship or whatever.
Be it just to get experience, or seriously get into your first as well as your last, as well as your forever one, obviously with that special girl/boy of yours.
Okay I'm speaking in terms of guys now, and my experience.
Afterall, which guy doesn't want to message that one special girl? And when the message tone comes and out comes 'Messaged received by XXXXX'
Of course, I'll be very happy if it was me. Just one message from that special girl is enough to make our day already.
Even if she doesn't reply just one message, it's enough to make us emotional.
I've had some good experience, but those are long gone, although it brings back really good memories.
Okay all this is bullshit, now to the main point.

I've got many friends who have been in a relationship, or are in a relationship now,
And those that've been in one, have been hurted like nobody's business, and it ruins their current life.
But I'm glad they're past that so damn emo stage, which I hope I don't ever go into next time.
I got some friends whose relationship is lasting as long as you can imagine, despite all those countless quarrels and such,
And I gotta give credit to Hafiz, because he and his girlfriend are one long lasting assholes. Ahahaha just kidding!


But there's some who's on the verge of breaking up, and resort to lame stuffs to get them back, no matter what.
I got this particular girl friend, whom I think is stupid, petulant, retarded, and whatsoever.
From what I've heard, her boyfriend is a total piece of shit who gives her no freedom, and if you're the guy, go fuck the wall or something,
Because I think you're a disgrace to every single living thing on earth and you should die.
And the girl is blaming herself for God-knows-why reason, saying that she caused all these problems,
Which once again I think it ridiculous.
She gets drunk with another guy friend, and I assume it's purposely, and then calls her best friend and speak some bullshit to her,
And then make her best friend call her boyfriend, bloody bitchass attention seeker.
Life isn't a fucking TV drama little girl. You can't get drunk or blame yourself and expect the same outcome as in TV drama.
You should go fuck the wall as well because I think you're useless, you're helpless.
You probably curse me and swear at me or even tell your bullshit boyfriend about me,
But I don't give a shit, it's people like you that deserves a fucking triple pound on your head to wake up
Here's a good advice for you, break up with your boyfriend, be a free girl, don't be a slave, and of course, don't make yourself look like a slut or a flirt. For God's sake.

1 more friend, my poly mate, just a short one for you bro.
Maybe you don't give a shit or whatever, but I seriously hope you can overcome this emo-ness bullshit and get on with life,
Especially your studies. No studies, no future. So take note.
Goes out to you reading this as well.

So hello there friend,
I hope you won't fall into the same path as that girl friend of mine,
I hope that you would think twice before committing yourself in a relationship,
If you think you can juggle between studies and relationship, then all the best to you.

Good luck

Back again

I was doing this quiz on Facebook and a question was :
"Who do you like to hang out with ? "
There was this option that totally makes this quiz an awesome quiz :
"Anyone who wants to hang out with me. I think everyone has something to bring to the table, no matter who you are."
Wonderful.

On a side note, I'm back from Welfare camp, and it was a good camp.
Got to know some 'gay boys' and more friends. Haha
10 MCQ Maths quiz tomorrow , 0 confidence.

G.
G.

Question & Answer

Question : How can a good day turn into a bad day?
Answer : When you see a fucking disgusting and awful looking fat bitch who wears as if she's fucking skinny, etc skinny jeans, and puts on makeup , lying to herself that she's beautiful. She can go fuck herself. No she should.

Some, just some.

'Some people'.

There are many types of 'some people' in the world,
And 'some people' might be referring to you, or might not be referring to you.
Whatever the case, if you're inside the 'some people',
It's your life, you decide what you want to do with it,
Screw it, or Live it.

Some people don't think when they do things.
Some people don't use their brains to think, they use their ass.
Some people are arrogant and proud of themselves, brags around, and ends up having no friends.
Some people don't know what they are doing at all.
Some people can't justify for their wrongs.
Some people thought the things they do are right, but actually it's wrong and it pisses everyone off.
Some people makes you think twice about being their friend.
Some people makes you want to go to their doorstep and slash them.
Some people brags over stuffs that doesn't really bring them anywhere.
Some people are older than you, but they're still very immatured.
Some people are desperate.
Some people just try too hard sometimes.
Lastly, some people are a fucking disgrace to the society.

To offtrack a bit, it's Mother's day tomorrow.
Have a wonderful day with your mom. Enjoy the night.

My behaviour, your behaviour

Lets talk about this common chinese idiom today : Xian Ku Hou Tian
Most, or should I say all Chinese knows this idiom, for those that don't,
Translation is 'Suffer First, Enjoy Behind'
Everyone will obviously choose to suffer first, rather than enjoy, or at least thats what I think.
Okay now let me say something I can assure is true for all of you.
No one 'Suffer First, Enjoy Behind' in school, most of us ' Enjoy first, Suffer Behind'
Example, studies. Maybe you choose to skip a day of school, and tell yourself to study later.
Ain't you enjoying first?
And then you miss out on a load of lessons.
Maybe halfway during class, your lecturer suddenly gives a suggestion to continue studying or go home and continue next lesson.
Most will say next week I guess, including me as well

No I'm not trying to say anything nor discriminate anyone,
I just find it interesting that most of us don't follow that 'Xian Ku Hou Tian policy'
Not forgeting about procrastination too, and I know you do love to procrastinate as well.
And finally not forgeting what we will always say after we get our results back :
'Next semester must work hard already, serious. I not gonna sleep in class or skip lessons. Must get high GPA.'
But in the end, we all know we love to 'defy' that.
What a life !

Days of my life.

A day of my life in the MRT :

A China student, whom I assume, was constantly taking glances at me,
& she was standing quite close to me.
Gosh how I wished Kovan was the next stop.
Of all the girls that had to look at me, it just had to be a male-like china girl.
Life's a bitch, sometimes.

All shout amen?

Edit :

Nice one Mayi !

It's been long

Headache,
Sore throat,
Running nose,
No school,
Eating a lot,
37.8 C,

That basically made up my day.
And no, I'm determined not to miss school tomorrow.
NO!